Love is the language, that every heart speaks.

YAY! :D tomorrow's finally a holiday. so glad. celebrated teacher's day today, and it was good. saw Aaron Aziz in school, and my HE'S DAMN HOT PLEASE. hahahahahaha class was like nap time for me, double chinese period and all she was talking about was just about our orals and format bout the paper? haha i don't know i was sound asleep. :)

Then went with Beitris, Alicia, Eunice, Yuling, Gwen, Jeannie, Shalom, Grace and Sam to watch the maid. man i tell you the whole theatre was screaming like mad! damn funny but the guys behind us were so irritating! kept asking them to shut the fuck up. haha and we all screamed because everyone was screaming. so fun please! =D then went to eat at Heeren Sakae Sushi, but none of us ate sushi! ( haha sense the contradiction? ) hm then walked around, went to meet my mum then went home!

Training yesterday was the last, and sad to say, i kinda missed it. haha okay everyone must be thinking what a loser i am. but really, the feeling's hard to explain. hurrhurr. this also means that i have lesser time to exercise now.. ):

Next week = No school holiday!
Like seriously, i have to go back to school 4 times next week tomorrow! :l isn't the break like for us to do self studying and relax? so irritating, so dont wna go back for it. teacher's taking advantage of our hoildays. >:(

This Saturday cant watch the Asian champs, going for Andrew's church thing. ): Kelda! better tell me about the results okay! or else i'll kill you the next time i see you! hahaha <333

Don't give up on every little hope that we have. :)

Engulf in lolliops;

Had some mini carnival in the morning, and yay! we won! :) hurrhurrhurr. got money, drinks and food! haha i sound so greedy. =P glad i still managed to get up in the morning and made it in time or else Daphne would grumble all the way. haha.

And something embarrassing happened just now! my mom's friends came over to our house, and while i finished bathing, i forgot to take in the towel! :l and they were in the kitchen for god's sake which is like less than a metre away from the toilet! *red - dens* now im hiding my face in the room. =S




Ah check Naima out! she's damn hot please! :D haha she tops American Next Top Model! haha and Kaylen too! pretty pretty. love this season :)

Thinking back, there was this experience i'll never forget. happened last year, and im glad its all over now. could help my friend if she's in need :) and my warning to everyone out there : things you find cool and fun are not exactly what you think they are. its all a trick. and im glad i fell into it, because if not, i'll never know whether all these are true. took me a long time to recover, but hey, im alright now. :) everyone can get out of the shit, if they have the correct amount of determination. so im not asking you to stop now, but a little at a time really helps alot.

Friendships are complicated, especially when such conflicts happen. relationships are worst, especially when both keeps mum about a misunderstanding. sigh i really do need a break. *pulls hair*


Oh yea, new link by the way, minghuan

:)

To pretend like we've moved on;
lets face reality instead.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Yesterday's training was okay, or should i say a friendly. so wasn't expected to play Center, guess i have just got to get used to it. =S but i was happy, cos i didn't really felt tired and all. ate a lil later wuth the rest, and Daphne sent me home. :D haha what a 'free' night. :)

Damn packed tomorrow. carnival in the morning, class stuff in the afternoon and 17s gathering in the evening. but im gona drown myself tonight with shows and hopefully i can wake up early tomorrow. haha we'll see.

Stop adding people you bitch. im done scolding!

Ta world! =)

You make my life complete.

Okay. gonna make this short and sweet.

Training sucked today, dont wanna comment about it. anyway, i think it was the freaking sun that pulled all our spirits down ): but after training was good, hyperactive :)

Don't stare, say hi :D

Drunken deep inside;
I just wanna be alone.

RAHHHH.

I'm deproving so much in my studies! actually failed all 3 of my tests i took this week, plus Chemistry that i took today, my report card will be full of red marks! :'( SIGH. god please make this world a better place where everyone can learn to take things im a more relaxed manner.

But on the other hand, i'm glad that i still have a small amount of discipline. yes, resist temptation :) there are many fctors of life that need this, not only study wise. and if some people just can't control themselves, i'm afraid that sooner or later they might really regret but you know what? for all you might know its all too late.

Training yesterday was okay, just plain dirty. haha and there's training tomorrow again, ewwww. another training on Friday and carnival on Sunday. and yes! there will be 17s gathering on Sunday! YAY! :D
weekend isn't that bad after all. plus minusing all the trainings and fun.

And i'm relieved that next week has only 2 school days. it makes me look forward to something. haha H O L I D A Y S :DD

Thanks bestie for everything that you gave me! :) it was the best anyone could ask for.. really.

I just wanna be alone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE ! =D

Such fun today sunbear! :D altogether with Sam, Beitris, Alicia, Shalom and HuiShian. the part where they played the birthday song in Pizza Hut was the worst! :l haha i almost died! anyway Eun! hoped you enjoyed every single little bit of happiness that we gave to you :)

Today was a bad day, cos my eyes weren't feeling that well. they were kinda painful -_-' and i didn't see anything wrong or what so ever okay! haha whatever.other than feeling sleepy, day was quite okay.

Haha and i didn't get to see that bitch except for a glance, and not even one eyecandy! boohoo! :'(

Gotta study for Chem, Physics, Geograhy and Emath! :l
Amath was a killer for me, really.
Sam wait to treat me Swensen's! :D

If i could, i would.

Argh. have you ever have this feeling before, when you come online and read some stuff, you feel so lost and fucked up?

Well that's how exactly im feeling right now. DAMNIT. :l

To that same person, seriously, get a life and stop hurting people.

The magic of her charms.

School has been sucha drag. though today's Saturday, but i swear the weekends going to be over in any minute.. and say, Reena will be back! :) how much i miss that girl, cant wait to see her soon. :D

Thursday training was okay, just that coach got angry over small and minor things. she talked to us for awhile, and for maybe the FIRST time, she is somehow or rather making sense. haha. about how we should balance out our studies and netball AND playtime. and of course, she has to remind us that the finals are nearing. :l

Yesterday was a blast too. :) went out with Bestie to town to play pool. but before that, i thought i was stuck at home and couldn't go home. so she went back with me and realised that my brother went to the park. -_- then met Huiyun to pool for awhile. after that, we went to walk around, yak yak and yak. :) went to meet my mum to eat dinner. then went back to my house to bathe and watch tv. haha and she went back home at about 12, which was in the morning. haha yea,

AND BESTIE! :
thanks for sucha wonderful day. :) couldn't be any better. so glad that we actually could spend the whole of one day together! have more of these in future okay! <3 you plenty! :D

And im done helping Celeste with her blog. oh i feel like a saint. :) [and dont say i can only feel like cos im not one!] haha and now i shall go shopping! for someone whose bday's on Monday. HAHA.

17s gathering soon! :DD

i love you! :)

My summer fling;

Smile can do wonders.. especially from someone whom you don't consider as a friend :D AND, doesn't smile that often too, not even in photos does she show her big grin. but when she flashes you that smile, a sense of happiness runs deeply in my blood. aha my only one,i'm satisfied for today :)

PE is getting more entertaining. ;) all the dancing and shaking, we're at mordern jazz now! but i still think jive's nicer, cos we have partners to dance with. :D
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

But somehow i still find something amissed. :'( like its not there when its supposed too. guess friendships doesn't really last forever eh? not all, some still do exist after a really long time. :) because i'm happy today, i shall tell it nicely to your face : stop fitting into cliques and get out of them in a short matter of time. friends, to you are just like different types of drinks. when you feel like drinking them, you'll pick them. or else they will just be left on the shelf until you need them. get what i mean? i know you, being sociable and all. but sometimes it just pisses people off. and i know you don't want that to happen right. cos without friends, you can't live. i know you, too well. and faking is another thing. well, congrats that everyone believes in your acting, but not for me. so don't act in my presence, cos one day, i might just burst right in front of you. think you know who you are? go search your fucking conscience, and you'll find out.

I just wna hold on to you right now,
But you're not here.

True love doesn't have a happy ending;
For true love doesn't end.

Rah.
yesterday was surely a blast.
one day that i'll never forget.
shall not elaborate on it.

Monday blues, as usual.
changed seats in class, and that means im not sitting with Euneun anymore.
haha. =P but she's just a seat behind me so she's still in sight. haha.
right, and something embarassing happened, something about the math CA.
it was terrible, i tell you.

Training tomorrow is cancelled! :D
Thank gawd cos seriously, i need the rest.
From all the stress and pressure,
who doesn't need a break?

Hahahahahhahaahahahahhaahahahaahhaha.
Don't feel like blogging anymore.
why am i typing like that.
withdrawal symptoms. )):

You put that sparkle back in my eye
You filled my heart with love
You made me smile again
You were truly a gift from above.

You don't have to know me to love me.



We finally got my bestie a new pencil case! :D guess she must be damn happy about it.. cos we have been dragging on why we were not able to buy her pencil case, be it no money or no time. haha so yea! glad she likes it. :)

Went out with Chew for dinner yesterday. =D haven't seen her in ages! still looked as great as ever. haha had dinner at Marche. Pet and Huiyun came to join us later. as usual, Pet was being a meanie! ;P haha i'm kidding. headed ta Meridien to play pool later. was fun. :) pet had to do 20 push ups for me! haha and i had ta dance. -_- Celeste came to join after that, and we headed home at about 11pm. and stupid Celeste had to remind me that it was the 7th month! :l well at least we had fun scaring each other. Lol.

And the 19s left for Asean today. wish them all the best though i know Reena cant read it cos she's overseas. but still, i'm gona miss her when she'll not be in town for the whole of next week! :'(
sigh. cant get to talk to her.

Have to catch up on studies! now that i'm back home after a tiring day of shopping, its time to head for the books. BOOOOORRRINNNNGG TIMEEE! ):

Caramel = Sweetness. :D

Today was a day out with Bestie. :) caught Bewitched, which was quite okay. movie's quite draggy though. ate lunch and we went to print a picture using her phone. got quite frustrated but we succeeded after many tries. haha and now im back home.

Insects are disgusting, and a cockroach just invaded into our house. :l *yikes* spraying Baygon and screaming, running round the house has surely got it scared. and now its in the rubbish chute down our house. hurrhurr. =p

*i give up*
this is getting too tedious. and thinking of it just tell me that the chances of saving it is too.. unpredictable. sick of all the jealously and stuff, guess im just better of without feelings.

Strange as it seems;
She's the one i'm going for.

All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile
I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do
I love you this much
I do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Til my dying day

A fruitful - less day spent at Celeste's house, for six whole hours! haha other than having tuition and having scoldings by him, it was either sleep, eat or watch tv. haha. my, and i was like planning to do homework. bahaa.

HEY. watch your temper.

Someone's been using my name in vain to say something un - nice about someone else. and slowly, i'll figure out this whole puzzle and when i do, the mastermind will be like in, deep shit? well, worst than that.

I don't seem affected by that matter, but pondering over it again and again makes me wonder; is this like not infatuation? cos i jolly know my heart's for that person, but on the other hand, i feel for that other person too, but not as much. WHY AM I STILL THINKING OVER THAT PARTICULAR COMMENT. blah, someone slap me NOW.

I tear my heart open;
Just to feel.

Recently, some bitches have been getting on my nerves. and to some extent, they're called my friends. if its not for the Pesta thing i would just burst out right NOW. go bitches, go on and regret your life laterr.

That was abit harsh, but i've been wanting to say that for a very long time. call me a hypocrite, i dont care. cos after saying all these, i feel better at least. and i wont do stupid things for them. no, never.

Day out with Vivien. didnt go to school, cos i couldnt be bothered. haha well met Vivien in town later to eat. lunch was horrible. :l hafta wait so long to get our food. talked meanwhile. went to Meridien to play pool later. saw people there. yea, saw my eyecandy along the way too. :) LOVEHER. then played for awhile. bb walked past me, gave me something too! :D went home after that.

Oh yes!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VIVIEN! :)

Well, things can cant change for now.

love my bb! :)

Say you love me once more.

Today's perfect. :) loved how everything went. and i must thank God for that. had Pesta today, and we are the champs! -beams- what a lovely ending for the season. never expected it though. there were so many other stronger teams there, and never did we expected to go all the way down to finals. and all the pictures we took, added on to the fun and laughter. some conflict happened, and obviously almost the whole world hated Extremes. haha. saw loads of people there too. like Atalia! :D havent seen you in ages! ha. just wna congratulate everyone for putting in so much effort! this team's the best anyone can ask for.. really. and i feel so fortuanate to know every single one of you. :) my motivators for the future. last part was saddening, when everybody had ta part. ): but we're gona have a dinner outing again i guess! cos of the money we won! :D and the meetings held once a month?
YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.



BEST TEAM EVERRRRR.

It was only a kiss,
How did it end up like this;

RAH THIS SICKNESS IS KILLING ME. :l

Didn't really enjoy ytd. feeling rather unwell, and it won't go away. ): having sucidal thoughts in school, and acting rather tough during Honours. Pesta's tomorrow! need plenty of rest so that i'll feel better tmr. meanwhile my throat's killing me. :l

17's is another issue. tomorrow will be the last time that we will all be playing together as a team. i'll miss you guys, every single one of you. ): without one person, the team wouldn't be the same as it would be now, every single one of you make a difference. :) more meetings in future alrights! just hope tomorrow will never end. and go here to look at photos, think Farhanah did a great job. :)

Okay i know i'm not really involved in it but hey, look here. its both of my greatest friends that are involved in this. it pains me to see you two not knowing wat to do in each other's presence. conference aights? and hopefully we can settle this issue asap. don't want it to drag any further. it hurts when i think about it.

dang ni shuo ni ai wo yi hou
wo de tian kong xing xing dou liang le.

Stress - free already! :) yay at least with other things excluding studying.. that's a lifetime commitment. ): heheh but just glad that things are better now.

Had dinner last night at Cafe Vienna. :) 2nd last gathering for the 17s. last night was memorable. ate alot, talked alot and took alot of pictures. :D will try ta upload them soon. :) and i'm so sorry Reena! about your shirt! ): but we really did had alot of fun in the toilet cleaning the mess up. haha. ;)

Honour's day rehersal today, and it ate up quite alot of time. went for training, and the warm up was a killer, nothing unusual. and the food i ate in the afternoon is taking effect on me! :l i'm having a bad sore throat now! and my nose's killing me! medicine time! *faints*

Honour's day tomorrow. :)

When you left;
i lost a part of me.



Need i say more? :)


Me and Celeste.


Three - tants! :D


Me and Mich.


Evlin and me. :)

The reason why i'm putting these pictures up are to show that they're the best of the people that i've met so far; including lots of other people who didn't turn up for that night. :) to have them as good friends, there's nothing more i could ask for. <3

Training today, wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. phewws. though it was quite tedious, but timings are the worst. had a talk with Reena and Pamels after training, and it was really nice talking to the both of them today. :) missed them so much. especially Pamela, haven't seen her for lightyears. haha and Reena always brighten up my day. :D

Tomorrow's the dinner for 17s. gona meet Vivien ta play pool first. :) will miss this special bunch of people. ): one of the teams that i'm most stuck too. sigh Sunday's the last, Pesta Sukan.

Suddenly i'm feeling that without all my friends, i would have not been here and who i am. so i wna thank all those people around me! don't know what i'll be without ya'll. <33